Next Stop…Nervous Breakdown
I have always known that I was a Type-A personality. In fact, I might as well sit on the welcoming committee on Neurotic-ville. My constant need to overthink and overanalyze has never affected me too much until now. I am breaking out in hives…nasty hives all over my body, face and legs from being too stressed out. Go figure.
I am used to being unable to fall asleep because of a presentation the next day. I am okay with checking and rechecking my own work for perfection. I don’t mind being labeled as neurotic because I hound people to follow up with me. Now that my overachiever-self is affected physically, I am going to bring it down a couple of hundred notches.
I love my job. I love the people I work with, less one or two. I thrive on the urgency of my job. I see this as a long-term career but I am going to have a nervous breakdown if I don’t take a chill pill. In the last two weeks, this is the third breakout I have had and it does not look good. Four visits to the dermatologist and a blood test later (pending the results), my hives are not allergy related but in fact induced by stress. The test are not out yet, how do I know it’s stress-related?…because, I had a minor outbreak ten minutes after my boss calls me on my cell phone on my sick day.
This is not some small outbreak but large areas of reddened skin all over and it’s itchy as hell on top of that! I am actually disgusted at how I look. I doubt I will be meeting up with my lover this weekend. I have been looking forward to spending some time with a very cute someone but now I have to avoid him like plague because I look like the human bee-hive but in red! Guess I need to go back to yoga…
