The world according to me…

Went to Aer Lounge last Saturday night. Yes, it kinda pretentious but you gotta admit the place is gorgeous! I flipped for the butterflies on wall and homage to Greek mythology. Love the trendy location and bartenders. Not my type of crowd, though. WASP alert!!! The people were so white …even the African Americans were more of a shade of gray. Okay, question, how do I know the crowd was too white? Well, the crowd cheered when "Sweet Home Alabama" came on…I rest my case. Many a twinkies too…but then again they are everywhere. The music was absolutely banging.  I am telling you the dance floor rocked when "Gold Digger" came on. Kanye you owned the night and my heart…yummy! The dance floor was too small though. I need space to shake this booty. *wink*

He is returning my calls. We talk and laugh. He is the first person I turn to when I am down. I was having so much problems at work and he made everything so right. He is my sounding board and my grip on reality. I am so dependent on him to keep my sane. I accept him for who he is. I want nothing from him and I want him just as he is, no more, no less. I am trying to get over him but it is so hard! Well, I am going out. Making new friends. All the alcohol I am consuming is helping A LOT! Most important of all, there is someone from his past back in his life. I cannot and want not, to compete with her. She does so much for him and they have a history. As for me, I do so much for him as it is…there is nothing more I can give. I am so drained. He doesn’t ask for anything but he is the kind that makes you want to give him the world on a silver platter. He is so worth it. Then, there are times I see IT in his eyes and when I look into his eyes, I get lost. Things are still messy. I have talked to her a couple of times. She is really nice and all his friends know her. The two things we have in common are 1. Our love and adoration for him 2. Our sense of physical insecurities. Anyway, I guess we are both moving on. She is easing his transition and the alcohol is accelerating my transition. OMG before you you guys go ballistic about me turning into an alcoholic!!!…I go out once, twice a week and get sloshed. I stay in the company of women when I am intoxicated. BUT, gee whiz I am telling you, one of these days, I am so going to drunk dial him…wonder if I will A. Curse him out B. Profess my undying, unconditional love and adoration C. Cry about the hurt he caused me D. Make a booty call….go ahead guess!

Last night was so much fun!!! I made some new friends. N and R, you gals totally rock! I can’t wait ’till we go out again. C, N and R are three confident sexy woman. The four of us are the real life Charlotte, Samantha, Carrie and Miranda! E, you once again prove to me that you are an amazing friend. It was banging last night and we tore up China Club. Every dance floor we hit, we turned heads. C’mon, 6 sexy women shakin’ their booties…you can’t keep your eyes away. We were an international buffet feast for the eyes!

OK one thing guys, y’all need to back off. No means no! You can look all you want but when I wave that finger at you means back off my ass. So stop grinding yourself up at me because I have no problems kicking you in the balls. Another thing, I ain’t going home with NONE of you…because YOU ARE NOT HIM! My mind, body and soul is taken but you can enjoy the view. *wink*  I am sorry I was such big tease Mr. Chemist from Nigeria. You were so cute but nothing was going to happen! Sometimes I think fate and destiny intervenes. On my way to China Club, I saw a guy that looked exactly like "him" from the back and that freaked me out a little. Then coming out of the subway, I saw a guy in a football jersey with "his" name emblazoned across his back. It was like a big neon sign telling me to remember who really matters to me. So I had a girls’ night out and we rocked China Club. I spent the night (or what was left of it!) at E’s and she even walked me to the subway in the morning. Now I need to get rid of this hangover in time for work tomorrow…hmm…

Okay y’all need to check out my pics! We took about 130 pictures and I have carefully selected the ones I look best in. *wink* We were in Orlando over Labor Day weekend and it was a blast. It seems like only yesterday I was on a rescue mission with Spiderman! We were in Universal Studios the first day and Islands of Adventure the second. Shopping (all day!) was reserved for the third. A shout out Aunty Nancy for letting us use her beautiful apartment. Thanks baby brother Kevin for paying for my flight and Kenneth for paying for…erm EVERYTHING ELSE! Do check out my pictures, k?

Dear Friends,

I heard from a pink bee that you guys are worried. Please don’t! I am fine. I have always been the one that attracts trouble among all of us. Think… I am the one that wrecks my cars before O Levels. I am the one that unknowingly hits on my friend’s big brother. I am the most infamous girl in Prince High. I am the only one of us to drop out of A-levels and leave the country!

Among us, I have always had the most exciting (horrific?!) stories because I go Mach 5 in everything I do. "I love trouble" doesn’t begin to explain my bad behavior. I do make horrible decisions but I always bounce back because I have friends like you. I screw up so much, it’s wonder I am still sane!

What can I say? I like bad boys. I don’t like men that treat me good and this one, is bad to the bone. He never calls back…half the time he don’t pick up the damn phone. He cannot hold on to ANY relationship to save his life…be it family or friends. He is irresponsible with work. All he wants to do is have fun.

BUT! my friends, he is so much fun. There is never a dull moment with him. No one can make me laugh like he does. He has the BEST stories and he is an excellent storyteller. He always game for anything. Spontaneity is his middle name! He is so intelligent. He reads religiously and he retains everything. He can tell you SOMETHING about EVERYTHING.

Not that it is important but he is gorgeous. He is drop dead gorgeous. When I am with him heads turn…I still cannot believe we were together. If you ever saw him, my friends you would go, "Dang girl, you scored! Go girlfriend!"…and if you ever saw the two of us together, you cannot ignore the chemistry. I pray that you guys will get to meet him one day.

Guys, I am still the same crazy, fun-loving Yvonne. I will NEVER change and no matter how low I sink, I always come up on top. I still laugh the loudest, drink the most, dance the hardest, wear what I want, hack my hair off when I am upset, cry at movies, lust after Keanu Reeves, turn heads at every party and I am still the biggest tease ever. I will always be a the hot topic of conversation….I AM YVONNE HO! My friends, smile when you think of me three thousand miles away. Don’t frown for I am livin’ large.

Hugs and kisses always,

The one and the only Yvonne

This week just flew by for me. I am really, REALLY tired. I got home last night and when I crawled into my own bed (finally), it felt so weird. I swear I did not recognize my own bed. Sure the Hyatt Regency had nice beds but I missed my own stinky bed.   When I woke up this morning, I had to stop for a minute to figure out where I am. Then I saw the rows of cute handbags on my wall and I remembered I was in the comfort of my "closet" (those who know me will know that my bedroom is actually a giant closet for my clothes, shoes and handbags!). I have to say I loved the Windy City. It is beautiful.  I would move there in a heartbeat less the abominable winters. So with that said, I am still looking for my next home. Y’all know I love moving! I am loving the single life and living out of a suitcase. I think A-town is next…or is it San Diego? Hmm…

I can see clearly now, the rain is gone,
I can see all obstacles in my way
Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind
It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day
It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day

Oh yes I can make it now, the pain is gone
All of the bad feelings have disappeared
Here is the rainbow I’ve been prayin’ for
It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day

I am in such a good place today. I am so happy. I am practically delirious. I am all smiles. It is amazing what this break did for me…and him. I waltzed in happy and he made things even better. Things are so good between us…now. When you hit rock bottom, the only way is up. He smelled so good when we hugged this morning. I am still tingling from when he stroked my hair. He was flirting all morning. He is so perfect. He got me coffee from Starbucks. He went on and on about the good ol’ times…I am thinking "WTF?" He wanted us to be friends and now?!…I don’t know why he brought it up. I don’t know what I am doing. I don’t know what he wants. I think I’ll just take one day at a time…baby steps, Yvonne, baby steps…I am so happy though! Nothing can’t wipe this grin off my face…No, I didn’t forget about the not so happy moments we had but sometimes you just gotta live and let live. Well guys, just be happy that I am out of that rut, k?

Never thought I say this but….gasp! I missed New York so much. I just got back from Orlando and I am officially a Yankee. I still love my country fried steak and peach cobbler but I was so relieved when the plane touched down at LGA. I was away the weekend before in Philly and this weekend I’ll be in Chi town. Being away so much makes me appreciate the Big Ol’ Rotten Apple more. Maybe NY isn’t that bad…MAYBE! I mean, there are a lot of homeless people in New York but they don’t roam the streets like they do in downtown Philly…we keep our homeless in the MTA. Yes, I am a b*tch for saying that but the truth has gotta be said! While the people in Orlando were much more polite but we New Yorkers keep it real. I had a GREAT time though. Good clean fun, good food and good friends! Kept the negative thoughts at bay all weekend and I am like a whole new person today. The fact that I practically bought myself a new wardrobe helps a lot! *wink* Let’s see how much I like the Windy City…